Confessions and a promise to myself

My to-do list began with arriving at 9am at a friend’s house to follow her to the auto repair shop. Easy, right? Well, it would have been if she’d remembered about the appointment and wasn’t still asleep when I arrived. Hitch: she has an infant. Much discussion and what-if’s later, we decided that getting both of them ready and swapping the carseat base into my Mini was going to take too much time, so I ended up babysitting and she got a ride back home in the courtesy van. Two hours of baby time was fine, but also plenty.

Confession: I don’t really enjoy other people’s children. They’re fine for short periods of time, but I’ve never been particularly kid-focused like some people naturally are.

The weather this afternoon was sunny and what we’re calling warm (mid-50s) after a long, hard, cold winter so I cracked out the cool weather cycling gear for the 2nd time in a week and got out on the trails for an easy ride. The wind was gusting but that’s to be expected heading west and it made for a quick return. I’d been invited to ride the SOG hill loop with a few friends later in the evening, which would have been nice as Jeff is out of town for a few days on business, but I decided that a quiet solo ride at my own pace was a better fit today. It’s been one of those much-internal-pondering-going-on-in-my-head periods lately. It turned out to be an excellent way to spend an hour and a half.

These periods are often a result of too much clicking and scrolling, liking and commenting, wanting to check-in with friends but not wanting to be annoying, so I’ve decided that it’s Spring Break time for me. The distraction apps are off the phone for the time-being and my search engine’s history has been wiped clean (requiring me to log back in before using any distraction sites). So things here will be quiet for a week or so while I reset my attention and get back into the habit of focusing on things that don’t require passwords, thumbprints, power cords, or dongles.

Promise to myself: I will take some time to create for creativity’s sake, learn for knowledge’s sake, cook/exercise for health’s sake, and remember that my friends and family know how to reach me, too. As literature so often reminds us, While love is able to dwell within the heart of only one person, relationships require two. (And I need to let others embrace their part instead of always rushing in.)

Here’s to living intentionally. Take good care of you.